everything feels so real. I wake up screaming, i’m surprised my neighbors haven’t called the cops yet.
I wake up drenched in sweat, and tears in my eyes.
This nightmare… I wish it would stop. I’m afraid it will come true. I have had dreams before that actually happened. It’s crazy, I know, but i’m serious.
I would given anything in the world to make sure it doesn’t happen. This is my biggest fear, coming alive right in front of me.
I haven’t slept right in a few nights, i’m afraid i’ll dream of it again. I need help. I will seek help from just about anyone. I need someone to listen. I need to know what it means. I need to know why it effects me this way. I need to know. Someone, anyone, please… help.
I don’t even know. But this pit in my stomach, and a knot in my heart. Something isn’t right.
So, my life can now begin. I have my promotion. I have my dream apartment. I have a dream boyfriend.
So excited to see what else is in store for me.
Positive attitude and helping others is really helping with my depression.
I can finally say I am happy with my own personal life that no one else is part of.
I love the life I have created for myself. Now, the life that others are part of, those help immensely but it was important for me to find happiness without anyone else.
The only part I am upset about is the fact that I am not going to be attending school for a year. I’m taking a gap year to get settled into my living situation. I’m also going to be taking up a few hobbies and projects that I have been postponing due to being too busy. I’m excited to start them!
Now, time to go shopping for things for my apartment! :D
just made me so happy that I cried.
I need to get out more often.
